Wednesday, February 4, 2015

necessaties


I'd seen the good in my mother for a change
and the way she looked at my little sister 
she was madly mesmerized by
the things her little fingers could do 
I on the other hand could do no good
and as the black sheep would
I ran the fuck out 
with out thinking 
about how much struggling was to come  

I remembered my father as the good guy 
but when I asked for help 
he renounced his place in my life 
and I 
cried for bit 
but I was raised to let things go 
that is if 
they weren't necessary

things are only necessary if you let them be
and I don't need anything that 
doesn't need me
 

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Unloved baby nation

perhaps her problem was claiming home in other peoples hearts
when 
really
there wasn't much room 
or maybe
it was telling the men that came and went 
what she thought love was 
cuz now baby's insides are cold as the air
blowing 
off 
ice skating rinks 
and her baby doesn't feel the love that made it 
the sweet words that raised her 
never ever 
escaped her lips again after 
baby's daddy dipped